Jesus the lover of my soul

Okay, so blog is not just a gathering of my ED experiences, but also a mirror to all the other aspects of my soul and my life. Right now, Christianity plays an important part in my life and is a balm and healing to most of my wounds. I really feel like sharing some of the most special, precious Christian pictures and quotes here in this post.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I am saved"
I'm whispering, "I was lost"
That is why I chose this way.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And pray for strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are all too visible,
But God believes I'm worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.

God won't ask what kind of car you drove, but will ask how many people you drove home who didn't have transportation.

God won't ask how much overtime you worked, but will ask if you worked overtime for your family and loved ones.

God won't ask what you did to help yourself,but will ask what you did to help others.

God won't ask how many friends you had,but will ask how many people to whom you were a true friend.

God won't ask what you did to protect your rights,but will ask what you did to protect the rights of others

God won't ask how many times your deeds matched your words,but will ask how many times they didn't.

 God didn't promise day without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain. But He did promise strength for the day, comfort for tears and light for the way.

Some people complain because God put thorns on roses, while others praise him for putting roses on thorns.

You didn’t do anything to earn God’s love and nothing you do can make Him love you less. He is love

I asked Jesus how much He loved me today. He replied, 'This much'. Then stretched out His arms and died.

You weren't an accident. You weren't mass produced. You aren't an assembly-line product. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on the earth by the Master Craftsman. 


I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go

 there's never a teardrop
that God doesn't see.
he knows when a sparrow
falls from a tree.
there's never a moment
when God doesn't care
never a time
when he won't hear our prayer.

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve;
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health, that I might do greater things;
I was given ailments that I might do better things.

I asked for riches, that I might be happy;
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life;
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I asked for-but everything I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.

I among all men, am most richly blessed.

Fasting Plan.

So, I would love to share my fasting plans for the next two weeks, I thought this would keep me motivated and give me something to look forward to. So for the next two weeks, from May 9 til May 20, I am going to do this simple little fast. It will go on like this: two days of liquid fast (tea, coffee and water only), one day of a small treat (most likely an apple or a kiwi if I must) and liquids. I have never done this before and I hope this will do me some good. I absolutely have to lose more for my prom on May 21 and further, and I hope this will be a good start.

Until then, I wish myself good luck.
Peace love skinny

Hello, world!

So, hello, world. I am not sure if anyone is going to get to read this, but I thought I'd say hi anyway. So, I am a girl, 16 years young and I am trying to lose weight. This problem has been a second me for as long as I can remember, and I have every ED there is.
I am desperately scared of mirrors.
I am slowly coming to being afraid of going outside, just because I am too ugly and I hate those judging looks of girls who look much prettier than me.
I hate trying on clothes - it seems like everything looks gross on me.

Unlike most people with ED's, I am not suffering from self-loathing and an urge to commit suicide - or, at least, not today really. I do understand that beauty is found within and I do know how to embrace the inner beauty I have inside, but other than that, I am striving for beauty outside, too. I want to feel that beauty again, when I look in the mirror and like what I am seeing. I am too sick and tired of having to shun mirrors.

So here in this blog, I commit to post whatever comes to my mind - thoughts, feelings, emotions, ups and downs, little and bigger failures and successes.
Hello, world!